GARAGERAT
Well-known member
I'm just pissed at the world today I guess. It's one of those days when I say to myself,"It wasn't supposed to turn out this way". I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself, I keep up a good front for my daughter cause dad's got to be strong but somedays it's just not that easy. This is one of those days. I'm divorced 3 1/2 years now. Didn't really want to be but when a court order full of lies made me leave my own house and the wife moved her boyfriend in the same day there really wasn't any other course of action. I have my daughter most of the time, which is the way I wanted it. Since I cut the cord in the hospital (she's 9 now) she and I have been thick as thieves (she has a pink strat, but ever since I got that Greco se-500......!). Her mother might have carried her for nine months but she's my baby. Always has been, always will be. But she's not here tonite and when that happens, I realize just how alone I am. If I even talk to any females she starts to worry I'm not gonna care about her anymore. Like her mom did. She does well in school and the teachers always say she's not like the other kids from divorced families. They teachers tell me you can usually tell right off the bat who has two parents at home. What I'm doing must be working. So for now I stay single and take care of her because it's her time to be the best she can be. It's her turn. As her father its my job to see she can go as far as possible. I had my shot and screwed my life up for a 10yr stretch, before I married her mother, with booze and pills. I got clean and came through it with my body and brain intact, thank god. I have had the same good job since 1989. So really I guess I'm doin' ok. It's just lonely in this house when, on the rare occasion, her mom takes her. I got the house, cars, furniture and the daughter but that cost me about 25K. Don't get me wrong, I'd have spent much more and I did pretty good anyway. I just think it's ******** that my daughter doesn't lay her head down in the same house as I do everynite. I think it's her mother that should be penalized, not me. I didn't really want out, but infidelity is a no strikes offense in my book. You're just out. Peroid. There's just no coming back from that, for me anyway. I've thought about me and the kid being so close being what made her stray. She never tried to talk about it and has never said so to this day so I'm just guessing. I don't know. I'm just rambling so I'm gonna go play something.
J.M.H.
she didn't say nothin bout leavin'
thats alright I still got my gitar
J.M.H.
she didn't say nothin bout leavin'
thats alright I still got my gitar